“Getting out from under It All” and “Looking for a Home”

Getting out from under It All Looking for a Home

This page saw two strokes of development, both streams of thought pointed at moving on from the past and where to live in the future.

The right page in graphite records an attempt to sort out the past and get beyond the psychological garbage that had held me back. At first, the blank page was challenging; the top left sketch shows Icarus in front of the tavnemika (Workplace M) elevator asking “what happens when you run out of ideas (to sketch)”. The answer to Icarus’ woes perhaps lay in studying what the great artists and architects wrote or did. A sketch of a banana seems to have nothing to do with this. Icarus is shown studying Peter Calthorpe, a contemporary urban planner. Vertically along the left side, Icarus is hurling a knife through his past at the pinnacle date of his woes, tayya 3310 (27 November 1985), the start of the ðelegajenâ (“Great Teenage Depression”) arising from racial hazing in school. Other significant transcendental dates are tayya 3a00 = 19 August 1988 (the beginning of university), 4687 = 26 January 1992 (the beginning of the Semester in Italy, a rebirth), 4b76 = 2 January 1994 (“Independence Day”, the date of moving to St. Louis and the start of the Lakepoint Era), and the current day. The bottom drawing shows Icarus effacing Arebinâ, emblematic of forgetting the past. Friends and acquaintances of this era signed the page, including Alindði. The right page was drawn 20 October 1996 (Tayya 5688), during the five dozen sixth phase (Ñixaþa-Xiübanal Xrga).

The left page in blue ballpoint explores potential places to move, drawn in a sunnier future date of 22 April 1998 (Ñixaþa-Aðilyral Xrga). It became evident I’d have to move from Amherst. The map of St. Louis indicates possibilities. The lower chart records Icarus“ earning power vs. the cost of housing, projected into the future, gaming out whether he might afford a house his landlords were selling. Friends of this era had signed the page before its development, and evidently had an influence on the pen color.

This page last modified Monday 9 April 2012.